My Journey.......

I have never really written down a time line of my journey to have a baby and I have been thinking about it a lot and I wanted to document it so that I would know dates and things so here we go:

November 15, 2008- Kevin and I got married

March 2009 - Got off of BC, we were trying, but not really trying

June 2009- Started actively trying
October 2009-Declared infertile by Dr. W/never once did a check on me or saw me unclothed ha
January 2010- HSG done/results blocked right tube was a possibly blocked
January-November Tried on our own
November 2010-Clomid 50mg
December 2010-Clomid 50mg
January 2011-Clomid 100mg
February 2011- Clomid 100mg
March 2011-Switched to a new Dr.  best decision I have made yet
April 2011-Had a Hysteroscopy and Endometrial ablation
July 2011-Clomid 50mg
August 2011- Clomid 100mg


Those are all of the major events that have taken place from November 2008-August 2011!  I never in a million years would have believed if you had told me I still wouldn't have a baby after trying for so long, however I haven't given up and I still feel that God is just waiting for the perfect time.....Thanks for you prayers also!

Wow! It has been awhile......

 I know, I know it has been awhile since I have blogged and my Uncle Johnny has been on my case so I decided it was time to update.  It is SUMMER and I love it!  One of the perks of my job is summer's off!  We took our first family trip since Kevin entered the family.  We went to Washington DC with my parents and we had so much fun.  My next blog is going to be about all the prizes we won playing car games.  DC is a walking city so my feet were killing me but it was worth it!  We made lots of memories!

In other news....can you believe the verdict in the Casey Anthony trial?  My stomach hurts just writing her name....I have never been so involved in a trial before and I am just sick at how things turned out.  I was literally depressed after the news.  I know that God knows all things and He will be the final judge, but dog gone...i.need.justice.now!

I bought some school supplies and made my new name tags for my coat hooks at school.  I love doing little projects!  Well that is all for now..I am going to try to do better.  PS this is my BIRTHDAY MONTH!!!! Yay!

A Step in the Right Direction.....

Well I feel like I have a lot to update everyone on!  I have switched doctors which has been a blessing.  As you have seen on my previous post I just never felt right about my last doctor and for me I just felt like I needed a fresh set of eyes on the situation.  So I chose to go to other doctor that was in the same practice.....Dr. H!  His daughter may or may not be in class, but we don't need to discuss that awkwardness HA!  I week 2 weeks ago to have my yearly and to set a plan of action.  My mom went with me and we were cracking up the whole time we were in the office I kept taking pictures to keep myself distracted and mom said that we were just starting the scrapbook early.  I asked her if we should video the exam to just get a head start on things.....WE ARE NUTS!  Anyway Dr. H came in and talked to us for an hour before he ever did the exam he had reviewed my chart the night before and told me my options....Mom and I both were very impressed with him!  So I bet you want to know what my options are so let me tell you:

I could have surgery to see if I have endometriosis which I am sure that I do and this also gives him a chance to look around and see what could be going on OR I could go to the fertility clinic and go from there....I chose option 1 it is alot cheaper and I feel that it is the natural next step.   I have never had surgery before, but I am actually very excited to have this done.

Surgery is set for April 14th!  Please pray that everything goes smoothly...I am the biggest chicken and I am scared to death of hospitals so this should be interesting.  I am just praying for peace and that this will help me get pregnant.  I know that everything is in God's hands and I am just fine with that!  I will miss a few days of work and then I will be good to go!

On another note we leave for BOSTON in 1 week!  I justed checked the weather and it is supposed to rain on game day....I just know that we didn't spend money to go there to not see a game so I just know that everythign will be just fine!  Pray for Kevin as we fly...he is scared to death..I am too if I am being honest.  I will have to be the strong one in this case though!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my favorite APRIL FOOL!  I love you Kevin!!!

Fenway Surpise!

My husband, Kevin, is turning 30 on April 1st and I wanted to do something fan-freakin-tastic for him since this is a big year.  I am not good at surprises as I usually spoil them the minute I find out about them.  But not this time! 

Kevin LOVES the Boston Red Sox.....like really LOVES them!  We have seen them play a few times and he loved it, but he always said that he wanted to go to Fenway to see a game.  This was on his Bucket List!  One small problem HE HATES TO FLY so much so that he took a greyhound bus back one time and wasted the plane ticket!  Crazy!  He did tell me that he would fly one more time in his life and it would be to Fenway!  Knowing this information I got to thinking that maybe I could pull off a trip for his birthday!  I started looking for tickets about a month ago and was shocked that the game closet to K's birthday at Fenway they would be playing none other than the New York Yankees....big rival there in case you didn't know!  So, I started pricing tickets and found the perfect ones!  Then the hard part was finding flights and knowing how expensive they were I didn't know how I would afford them.  Enter in my wonderful parents, they LOVE LOVE LOVE Kevin and I have somewhat been replaced by him, no hard feelings.....well they decided that they wanted to pay for our plane tickets!!!  Blessing!  Next we found a hotel on the Bay in Boston!

I had all the details worked out and ready and now to hold my surprise in!  I waited and waited and was so nervous so finally last night we agreed it would be the right time to tell Kevin.  We had dinner at my parents house with them and my Aunt Betty and Uncle Karl...after dinner I said I would I would like to talk about Kevin's birthday...he looked very strange at me and I gave him a folder with all the details and told him to flip through the pages....he did and was speechless!  I am so excited and can't wait to get there and have this experience!  Sorry honey, your boots will have to wait till Christmas, but I don't think you mind!!!

Our seats are the row in front of the dunkin donuts sign on row 19!!!  Can't wait till we are in our seats!!!  I will post pictures of everything once we get there on April 9th!!!

OK, OK, OK......

I know, I know, I have been a bad blogger.  My Uncle Johnny has been after me for months to change my blog and update more.  I didn't know I had so many fans. HAHA I am only kidding!  To be honest...I am so consumed with with work that my other blog gets all my creative juices and this one has been neglected.  I promise I will try to do better in the future!  So I will try to catch everyone up in one blog!  I will try to do this by months here goes:

Christmas Season/December/My Favorite Month

Kevin and I were very busy in December.  We had several Christmas Parties to attend with all different kinds of people.  I can't believe we got them all in but we did and I am so glad.  My favorite thing about Christmas this year was that we surprised my parents with a big flatscreen TV!  It is a funny story really but I don't have time to tell it here so I will just say that I am a MARATHON SPRINTER on Black Friday!  Yes, you read that right, I beat Kevin to the TV at Target and was actually the first one there period.  Kevin said I haven't been athletic a day in my life, but I came through that day!  My parents LOVED the TV and I cried!  Can we say CLOMID!!!  haha  I loved being out of school!  I had lunch with friends everyday and spent way to much money, but lucky Kevin understood my need for time away with great friends.

Snow Season/January/Freezing Cold

January was pretty uneventful!  We had a few snow days and that was nice to stay in bed all day.  I became a fan of recipe blogs and I am trying to cook one recipe a week from a blog.  I know your thinking one a week.....well folks when you don't cook....one a week is like a miracle.  BABY steps i tell ya!  I am doing the best I can.  I made a Taco Ring!  Kevin loved it!  I put it on my facebook and I think they all liked it too, several have said that they made one!  I went to watch the band Boom Kenetic with Linsdey and had so much fun...I was nervous at first becasue I never go out anymore, well when I was on the front row hands in the air laughing so hard....I guess my fears were over.  I am way past my prime, but it was a great time.  January was also the month for the Miss America Pagent!  I am obsessed with Miss America!  We had a girls night at Holly's and watched and Miss Arkansas did amazing!  I wanted to throw up when she didn't win!  Oh well!  I used to love Miss America when they would win and go sit in the big whicker chair with their crown on.  Oh memories....my parents allowed me to be the winner every year and sit in our den on a throne.  Oh Bless! 

The season we are always in INFERTILITY SEASON

I really don't have anything new to report other than CLOMID is a drug sent up from the pits of you know where to make me crazy.  Before Clomid I was emotional but on Clomid, I am just a train wreck.  For real, I cried at a toothpaste commercial!  We have done 2 cycles on 50mg and I am about to start my 3rd cycle of 100mg!  I really don't think it is going to work, but I am going to try.  People ask me all the time about how I am doing...honestly I would say that I am at PEACE!  I have read some pretty powerful things about how you can't let bitterness take over and you just need to rest in the PEACE that God has a plan and you are waiting on His mircale.  I have said before that if my desire is to have a baby then I will have a baby some way some how and if that is not God's plan then He will change my desire.  I have seen so many people let this tear them down to the point that it is just sad.  Don't get me wrong it is sad, it is frustrating, it is the deepest valley for me right now, but if my attitude reflects negetively on what God has planned for me that I am not setting a good example for people.  I have to show people that are in my shoes that God is using me to help others and HE is in control.  I might have a different tune on a differet day but today this is how I feel.  I have several friends that I pray will have babies too!!!!  J, T, B, K are a few that come to my mind...Pray for them too!!!!

I hope I haven't put you to sleep!!!  If so goodnight! haha!