Who's your Momma???

This is Mother's Day week and this is a very busy time if you are a teacher. We have been working so hard trying to get Mother's Day stuff done, so that all the mommies will be happy. I really hope they appreciate all the hard work that goes into making all these things. I wanted to share with you what we have been making.

I have the kids tell me exactly how to make their favorite food that their mom makes and we put them together and make a cookbook. One of this years entries!Then I ask all the kids to draw their mom's face. Please keep in mind I teach 4 year olds so these are very cute! We will have our Mother's Day Tea tomorrow and the mom's have to guess which one is them. Should be interesting.

It's Tough Being a Woman!

I am loving this Bible Study! I am learning so many neat things! If you are not doing a Bible Study right now this would be a great one to do! I hope everyone is having a good week. I am doing a lot better since my mild breakdown last Friday! I am pouting all my trust in the Lord and He will work it out. I have to stop worrying.

INFERTILE.....REALLY?????

Today has just been a whirlwind of emotions. I started a new Bible study this week it is amazing it is called ESTHER by Beth Moore. I have already learned so many things that I didn't already know. We all know Esther's story and how much faith she had. I wish I had her faith. Faith in knowing that God's will will be done! Faith that God's timing is perfect. Faith that I can let go and stop trying to make things go my way.

Today, my doctor's office called me to let me know that I needed to start paying on my bills. Bills? what Bills??? I knew I had one, but I just knew my insurance would cover it since I called them and they said it would be taken care of up till diagnosis of infertile. Well, apparently I was declared infertile in October 09. That would have been 4 months after we started trying. Really? This doctor hasn't even seen me without my clothes on...Really? I started trying in July infertile already really? Oh, and my doctor didn't tell me this the accounts lady did ...really? I balled my eyes out right there on the phone....the lady probably thought I was nuts, but I didn't care. I know that that is a possibility, it is for everyone...but I have never been told flat out "you are infertile" I have never been on any form of fertility medicine the only thing I have had done was the HSG it showed I had a blocked right tube, but that could be from a cyst. I know this getting pregnant thing has been an uphill battle, but I guess I wasn't ready to find out from a accounts sec. that I was infertile and according to her I have been since Oct. I am not going to lie...I am having a big pity party for myself and others are more than welcome to attend. As if getting pregnant isn't hard enough I have to pay out the butt when I know for a fact others in my situation haven't.....I am stressed. I have wonderful parents who have offered to pay, but I don't feel it is their responsibility to pay for their daughter who can't make a baby it's not their fault. I have tears streaming down my face as I type this, because this is just so hard and so hard to understand. I just want to scream why, why me, why not that 16 year old that doesn't want to have a baby. Why, does my husband have to be childless because of me....why can't my parents have the grand kids they have always wanted because of me.....WHY WHY WHY!!! I know I am ranting and I am sorry, but this is my blog and I normally upbeat and happy, but this is real and it is happening to me and yes, I know it could be worse...it always can be worse. I am not saying I have it rough, but this is my storm and this is what I am dealing with!

God please open my heart to hear YOUR voice and know that you are going through this storm with me and know that I am not alone. Let this situation bring honor and glory to you and may I see that YOUR will, WILL be done and not my own.

My List

I like to make lists and from time to time I make lists on my blog so this is my list of random things from this week! Enjoy

• bunko...check
• hang out with emily and lily...check
• get a very important letter from the post office...check
• DWTS...check
• AI...check
• GLEE ....check
• 16 and pregnant...check (might I add last night's was so upsetting to me the girl had no one but her boyfriends parents)
• tutor...check
• fold the laundry that has been piling up on the pool table...check
• finish a few scrapblog pages for slideshow...check
• try to conceive a baby...check, check, check, and check...haha!

So, that gets us up to date through Tuesday...there is still so much more to do for instance:

• start my new Bible Study tonight
• Idol gives back
• Weigh in at Weight Watchers
• walk
• cookout with the Sharp's
• walk again
• fresh meat II..im retard i know
• still walkin
• pray for a friend who is having a big day tomorrow morning
• laundry
• by new make-up and hair products
• pick up a fridge for the garage
• hang with hubby

I am sure there is more, but I need to run! I hope this Wednesday finds you happy!

Guess what happen at BUNKO.......

Can you believe it??? I have been doing BUNKO for six months now and I never win. I have so much fun with all the girls, but I never win. Well, watch out world....I am back!!! haha! I won this cute little note pad that actually doubles as a mouse pad very clever!!!!

I love BUNKO and I love that the people that play don't all run in the same circle. We all go to Immanuel so we have that in common, some are moms, some are not, some are married, some are not, some are blonde's, some are not, some are loud, some are not.....some always win and some do not! (i was in that group)! You get the point. We meet once a month at someones house and that person has dinner prepared and we eat and play. If you are not in a BUNKO group I highly recommend it!

Matt K and Cousin Carl

Matt Kenseth aka Kevin's Idol #17

Just a short post. As many of you know my hubby loves NASCAR and more importantly he LOVES Matt Kenseth. Well some guy at Kevin's work is good friends with Carl Edwards, we will call him Cousin Carl, well he goes and hangs with him often and found out Kevin was an MK fan and so he took these pictures for Kev. Needless to say, Kev now thinks we have a shot a meeting Matt! I would love for that to happen....Cousin Carl is Matt's teammate so maybe we could at least get an autograph personalized to Kevin.

Cousin Carl aka Carl Edwards #99

Sorry for the picture quality it is from a phone!

Red Sox Weekend

Kev and I getting ready for the game Friday night!

Kris and Evan's son Logan rockin the mohawk for the game! He is the cutest kid!

This is us at the game on Saturday! Our seats both nights were amazing! The rest are just some pics of player and the stadium.