Be still....

I am a worrier and always have been and these past few days have about sent me over the edge. I had my HSG on Monday and surprisingly it didn't hurt all that bad...thanks goodness....I had some nice medicine that took the edge off a bit so I think that did the trick. Don't get me wrong it wasn't a walk in the but honestly I think going to get my teeth cleaned at the dentist is much worse. So, the radiologist said that things where my cervix and uterus meet there was something he didn't know what or how to describe it really...and I was doped up on medicine and not really thinking clearly so at the time I couldn't really think of any questions to ask. He said that my doctor would need to an U/S to see what was going on. I waited for my doctor's nurse to call and tell me what my doctor has said...well she called yesterday and freaked me out..she said yes there is something, but they are not sure and I was like well is this serious and she said do you mean life threatening. I checked out at that point and I really can't piece to together everything else that was said. I asked when I could come in and actually speak with my doctor. She said next Tuesday...are you flippin kidding me that is like 7 days away....so what do I do till then?!?!? I have been listening to 'Tis so Sweet to Trust in Jesus on repeat in my car. It is the only thing that relaxes me. I do trust Jesus and I know He has a plan for me, so now I just have to BE STILL and know and trust in Him. I have been overwhelmed with people telling me they are praying for me...it brings me to tears knowing that people care. I know I have been very open on this blog and some people might criticize and say is that really necessary to put on such a public place, but to me it therapy and it helps me...also I want to look back and know where I have walked.